The Roads Not Taken

What if I had not lost my childhood innocence at age 9?

What if I had not stopped my abuser with a hot iron to his face?

What if I had not worked so hard to get good grades, to prove I really was worth something?

What if I had agreed with my high school guidance counselor when she told me I was not college material?

What if I had said “yes” to dance on the national TV show hosted by Bob Hope, instead of starting college?

What if I had not started to drink so heavily in college… to kill pain?

What if I had joined the very wrong crowd I was tempted to join after college?

What if I had looked for Love in The Right Place, instead of all the wrong places?

What if I had kept my baby instead of making her another victim of Roe v. Wade?

What if I had not heard Your whisper of Hope, Lord, that kept me from taking my own life?

What if I had gone back under my first husband’s “thumb,” where he said I “belonged”?

What if I had died in that auto accident… before I came to know You?

What if… ???

The Roads Not Taken.  The Roads I Am On Now.  The Roads That Are Yet To Come.

And You, Lord.  The One…

… who was always there, even when I had no clue.

… who kept me alive, one breath at a time.

… who made A Way whenever there was no way.

… who turned my mourning into dancing.

… who took even the worst and made it into Something Great.

… who said, “Come, follow Me” and helped me keep up.

… who showed me, and shows me, and forever will show me True Love.

“I love You, Lord, my Strength. The Lord is my Rock, my Fortress, my Deliverer; my God is my Rock, in whom I take Refuge, my Shield and the horn of my Salvation, my Stronghold… He reached down from on high and took hold of me; He drew me out of deep waters.  He rescued me… because He delighted in me.”  (Psalm 18:1-2,16,19)

Eternally grateful,

Abba’s Girl


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