Will I Ever Understand, Lord?

Was it something I said, Lord?  Or didn’t say?

Was it something I did?  Or didn’t do?

What other questions can I ask, Lord?  Questions without answers.

Will I ever understand?  How can I, Lord, when all my questions just evaporate into thin air?

I met her last year.  We had a wonderful time sharing our respective stories about how we each came to know and love You.

We parted ways with joyful anticipation of our next get-together.  We were forever sisters… or so I thought.

I never expected her utter rejection.

Why will she not respond to my emails?  Why will she not return my calls?

It’s a mystery.  And, truth be told, it hurts.

You know all about such things… don’t You, Lord?

“He was despised and rejected by mankind, a man of suffering, and familiar with pain.  Like one from whom people hide their faces He was despised and we held Him in low esteem.”  (Isaiah 53:3)

This is nothing compared to what You experienced, Lord.  Still… if only I could make sense of it, maybe I could fix it.

Sometimes, Life is a mystery beyond solving.  And we just have to keep living with our questions.

Will I ever understand?  How can I, Lord, when all my questions just evaporate into thin air?

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”  (Proverbs 3:5,6)

“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face.  Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.”  (1 Corinthians 13:12)

Living with my questions, at least for now…

Abba’s Girl

 

 

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